ERGH!!!

I wish only my friends and family would view my blog. I feel so insecure with my blog now.

Why must those people whom I do not know....view my blog... happen to know someone I'm close to.... then start making a big fuss over the things I write about my life which doesn't concern them and start asking stuff or teasing those that I'm close to.... Like wth!! Worst of all, that particular thing that I wrote was something that made me happy. It's not that I'm ranting or scrutinizing something.

I'm just so pissed off..... I'm not stepping on your tail, why must you squeal??

Demolition time. Goodbye! Look for my new blog. See ya....

Previous Trip Home

I just woke up from my long awaited nap. The entire week, I haven't had adequate shut eye due to my immensely packed schedule comprising of tests, quizzes, presentations, and assignments. Just had both my Computer test and tutorial this morning and it was difficult, more so than the previous. After that, I rushed back to my room to finish off my public speaking 2nd presentation outline then, rushed to the academic block to have it printed because it was due at 4pm and I finished it at what 3.25? Something like that. It's not because I procrastinated, there's just no freaking spare time and doing a whole outline and doing it carefully takes time. After that, it was finally my nap time. aaaahhhhh......gratifying.

Having said that, the coming week would shine upon another parallel scenario.
Tuesday- Biology quiz
Wednesday- last public speaking presentation!! yay!!
Thursday- Economics presentation
Friday- Computer tutorial, it's on flowchart of which fills me with animosity -_-"

Anyway, I've been talking a tad bit much on studies. Let's reverse footsteps to last weekend when I was back in my sweet home. It was pure bliss. Although, I didn't get to eat all the food that I anticipated. How much could I eat in a meager 3 days where half of each day was used for sleeping. haha..

When I reached Kuching International Airport, Karvin came to pick me up and as if I wasn't already happy just to be home and seeing him, he was so sweet to get me a little surprise gift which he left on the passenger car seat. Do you remember the little rose he gotten me on Valentine's day from Memory lane? I love that little rose heaps and now, he gotten me a bigger one. tee hee... happy!! I find them really adorable. My sis loves them too and she was complaining how come she didn't have 1. tee hee....

Uniting big rosey and little rosey. Look, even my bedsheet has rose. If you're wondering, I love heart-shaped stuffs. Only the memory lane's flowers captivated me.

Ian, my beloved brother, as I've promised, let me show you the goodies I ate back home. I didn't get to eat all that I anticipated and craved though.

This doesn't look very appetizing but I'm telling you, that's the best salad chicken rice I've tasted in Kuching. Really delicious. oo la la...

Mr. Ho's Spaghetti in Alfredo Sauce. The creamy texture and taste is superb. I'm drooling just thinking about it.

Mr. Ho's Signature Prawn Spaghetti which Karvin ordered. The pork cutlets are supremely succulent and you just can't get enough of it. The spaghetti was delicious as well. I hate prawns though.

Cream of the crop. LAMB!!! Ultimate favorite. This is the lamb shank from Magenta. This is the best. Omg.... I want it now!! And the butter mash potato....wooooshhh.... damn nice...

The honey lamb cutlets which I ordered for Karvin. He loves lamb too. hehe.... I love this one too... The glorious subtle sweet ending and the tenderness of the lamb - perfect

Muahaha!! My sweetheart!! Bing's hot chocolate. It does taste as good as it looks. Simply ambrosial!!! It's not the typical cheap chocolate that you get from most places.

That's it on food. Anyway, Karvin and I have been hand in hand for slightly more than a year now. hehe...

Our First Anniversary dinner at Magenta

Guess what he gotten me. hehe

A watch. Precisely what I need and it looks young
& casual. Good for classes. yay yay yay!!

The end. The next day, flew back to stress-stricken zone. -_-"

Quickie Update

I'm almost there. torture is always just ephemeral. I just did my 1st public speaking major presentation this morning. I wasn't sure how I did because all that ran through my head was time limit. I had been rehearsing all night till near dawn just to make sure I didn't cross 7 minutes. She's very particular about time limit. Anyway, regardless of how I did, I can sweep it off my chest already. But it's not until next friday that i will be slightly relaxed but relaxation is also just another brief zephyr.

Did my advanced enrollment already for next semester. I wasn't actually an early bird so I did not get all the subjects I had in mind. Decided to take calculus 2 although I'm extremely reluctant but it's a prerequisite for most US uni. What choice do I have? -_-"

The dilemma that I have now is I have both philosophy and world religions next semester. These two are those that need a lot and I mean a lot of reading and memorizing - regurgitation..

Tired. I haven't had peaceful sleep since Sunday. Am looking like a ghastly zombie now. Oh well... Marks are more important that beauty at the moment. hahaha..... Don't think I can score very well this semester.I think Dean's list is a far reach. =(

Am so tired. Going to rest a while and then try to get as many things done. Things that had to be done today are biology reports, public speaking outline, and economics executive summary.

Exhaustion is keeping abreast with me. But I must surmount it! Optimism,please flood my mind.

A Whipping & Weeping Week

I just got back from my own short holiday. Can't update much. Time is seriously of the essence now, this week!!

What's up?

Tomorrow - Economics test
Wednesday - Public Speaking Major Presentation
Thursday- Got to hand in Economics Executive Report
Friday- Computer test and tutorial
Next Tuesday- Biology Quiz
Next Wednesday- Another Public Speaking Major Presentation
Some time next week- Another Computer tutorial

Totally no space to breathe. This semester really is no joke. Gosh.....

Condemnation!!!!

I have an extremely strong propensity to flood this post with profanities. So far, I haven't really put in any hard core profanities....should I break the chain and do it now?

I just encountered the most horrifyingly embarrassing thing moments ago and I am not exagerrating one bit. Seriously a*hole I tell you.

But I won't blurt it all out here. That's how embarassing it is. Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

The worst part of it all was that................. *sob sob sob*..... my dear Blackie was there to witness every bit of torturous sentiment there was. Darn....

I hereby officially abhor toooooooooooooooooootttttttt Star Cineplex!!!!! Darn darn darn.....

Goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........................ just kill me..... =)

lalalalalalalalala.........I so wanna swear.............seriously............... gahhhhhhh................... (>.<)

The Scent of Brevity

I've finally let good chocolate chip muffin tickle my taste buds. happy. ^^

I'm not in LCCT's Coffeebean waiting to board the plane. tee hee.... I'm so close to Kuching. In 2 and a half hours time, I'll be seeing my darling Blackie already. First stop would be Sunny Hill!!! I must eat the vanilla ice-cream cone. haha....

Gosh... I sound like so "sakai" already. But seriously, I'm very hyped up thinking about my house, my bed, my pillow, my sister.......aaaaaahhhh........ Slivers of all that which I carry with me is just not enough. Sure it could numb me a bit but after a long while, miss all I have back home.

Grandma grandma grandma!!! Haven't seen her for a very very long time. The last time was Chinese New Year if I'm not mistaken.

Boarding time... see ya!

Slightly Lifted

Just done my Biology test 2 an hour ago. It's difficult!! Questions are trickily mind boggling especially the objectives. 1 objective question is worth 2 marks. Killer I tell you. I officially despise MCQs now. =( Highly doubt I can reach my target anymore. =( I desperately need all the marks I can get to compensate for losses here and there. I know my experiment reports would not score very high this semester. Quiz and assignments, I'm skeptical too....... I need marks from test!! T__T oh well... but am really glad it's over. But more tests to come.

As for now, I need to prepare my public speaking speech for tomorrow. It's the last micro-presentation! =D But 2 major presentations worth 35% overall are following up. Scary. Screw up means screw final results which means screw GPA which means screw CGPA which means CRAP,I'M DOOMED which means I'm officially an idiot which means I won't get accepted by good universities which means OMG,nooooo which means I cannot screw up. haha...annoying leh?? hahah... It's all in good fun.

It's really difficult to score with Miss Freeman because her standard is really high and since it's almost the end of the semester, she expects us to be near perfection. I don't blame her because this is uni level and of course it has to be good but I hate the subject because I cannot score high. If I can get A- for public speaking,I'll be overly happy and laugh till my underwear drop laaaaa. It's really difficult to score unless you're those with supremely swift deep loud tone and had lots of public speaking experience. I'm totally a newbie in this public speaking thingymajiger. Was sleeping throughout primary and secondary school so never knew. haha...

I'm just bored and felt the urge to tell everybody that I'm going home in....... less than TWO DAYS!! I haven't been home for a month. *standing ovation,quick!* hhaha....joking only... I know I shouldn't be going home so often as so I could adapt when I not in Malaysia but no harm to grasp the chance when they approach. =D

IAN, MY DEAR BROTHER, BE JEALOUS. VERY JEALOUS. I PROMISE I'LL SHOW YOU PICTURES OF DELICIOUS FOOD. I'M THE BEST SIS,RIGHT? =p

ANN, IT'S SHOPPING AND BAKING TIME,HONEY!!!

MUM & DAD...... HEADACHE TIME!! BE PREPARED K. MUACKSIE!! TEE HEE....

The Most Delicious Saint

Saints are always depicted as really nice, kind, loving, amiable, so on so forth - all good things in a compact package. The popularized Saint Nicholas for example - loving person who spread love on Valentine's Day. haha

There are heaps of Saints who are known for their own unparalleled characteristics or traits. However, there's this particular Saint who affably serves to satiate our taste buds. I haven't traveled the whole of Malaysia and I'm clueless as to how many palatable Saints there are in Malaysia so, after many years knowing only this particular delectable Saint, I still crave to plunge into its endorphins stimulated appetizing pool every time I am in Midvalley Megamall. Haha... I'm sure many of you shopaholics caught my drift already, right? hehe....

Since gluttony is one of the 7 deadly sins then, I guess they are "cinnful"

Yup yup yup. I'm referring to the well known Saint Cinnamon. It's my mum's favorite too. She never fails to buy a few boxes home whenever she came shopping in KL. I used to despise it's odorous smell but starting from 2 or 3 years back, I suddenly came to embrace it and I loved it ever since. My favorite is undoubtedly the Chocolate one. hehe... But, the original and blueberry one are pretty toothsome too!

I'm literally drooling as I'm thinking about it. Food in Inti are bringing many of us intolerable ennui because of the intense limitation of choice. The bundles to choose from are too little thus, customers cannot maximize their satisfaction which leads to inefficiency. haha... Mr Adrian is right!! We'll subconsciously apply economics in our daily life! Ok, sorry for the slight digresssion.

So, today, Madonna went to Midvalley with her aunts and muahahahahhahahaha..... I have my chocolate cinnamon rolls. Elated!!! No need to boggle my mind thinking of what I should eat tonight. yay!!!!!!! This is how excited you'll get when you get to eat what you after extended brutal deprivation of proper good food.

The first thing I'm going to feed myself when I'm back in Kuching is Mr. Ho's spaghetti with Alfredo sauce. A luscious creamy taste like no other that one. Time for countdown - I'm going back in 5 days!!!!! But till then, I have lots to do and study. Still have 4 more pages of Immunity to study(I take a long time to study a page) and I need to get a kick start on my public speaking major presentation outline. Let's not think about the rest first. One step at a time. Hectic.

I've had enough

Dear Mr you-know-who-you-are

I'm sorry if you were offended but I really can't take anymore of your teasing and insults. I'm sure you don't realize, but I've always been patient and letting you say and do whatever you wanted. But enough is enough. As a friend, you don't even care what I think. You want everything to go your way. Sorry that I can't be a submissive friend to comply because I hate dominant people.

You might think what you were saying was funny or merely a joke but you should know when to crack a joke and when not too. I've told you that I was very tired and not in the mood to play around but you didn't even care but still continue saying hurtful things to me.

You always tell me not to say certain things to you because you don't like it. Then, do you even take into consideration what I do not like to hear?? Since last sem I've told you a lot of times about it and you said you won't say those kind of stuff again but you still do.......a lot of times..... I've been patient but seriously, I have feelings and I'm a girl for goodness sakes. Just because I don't act out, doesn't me I don't care. I've told you nicely many times.Girls are all sensitive no matter how they try not to be. You like to do things your way and whenever I do not want to follow, you still forced me.

You asked me if I've realized that you change. If you said you did, I'd prefer the old you. Anyway, I'm fed up. Why should I let you treat me so badly? Who do you think you are?

Last Year, Today

1 year had passed. SPM results are out today and congratulations to all that scored well. Congrats to my darling Kristen for obtaining straight A's. St. Teresa Secondary School's results drop a bit this year though. Only 4 straight A1 and altogether 16 straight A's whereas last year, there were 6 straight A1 and altogether 24 straight A's. Nevertheless, congratulations to all. They must all be having a feast of joy today and from tomorrow onwards, they'd be scouring for scholarships. haha...

Last year, this time, was one of my most blissful day. Not only because of my SPM results but there's something else too which I never really told anyone. hehe... How I wish to go back in time to a year ago.....

The day before SPM, Blackie asked me if I'd want to go yam cha with him the next day but I told him that depends on my results. If sad, how to go out right? The next day, we went out for hi-tea...lol... He came to pick me up, and the first thing he did was asked for my results and I told him and he was taken aback. -_-" He thought I was just going to pass SPM with B's and C's. Proves that I have the not-study-material face. haha...oh well... don't really mind actually...

After munch munch sip sip talk talk, he drove me back and when I was almost home, he professed his affection for me. hahahaha...sounds disgusting right? haha...that's the whole point. That time, I still wasn't that that that close to him and I'm actually very shy and reserved to people whom I'm not close to so, I didn't know how to answer him. haha... All I did was smile in a very awkward manner. haha....

After he was done saying all he wanted and I didn't respond much, he then said maybe you want to consider about it? Immediately subtly nodded. hahaha.... Part of the reason to why I held back was also because it was 12th March. Why not 12th March?? Secret. ^^

Deep down, I was very happy when he told me he liked me because at that time, I liked him a bit already. tee hee.. I won't be going out with him if I don't.

I was already supremely elated because of my results and what he told me could be depicted as the delicious creamy whipcream on top of my ice blended chocolate chip. ooooooo....starbucks..... i'm deprived of you here.... speaking of which, opposite the ATM machine now, there's the LG truck promoting their ice-cream phone and there's Baskin Robbins sign on it. It gave me so much hope that they'll be Baskin Robbins ice-cream but my hopes all came crashing. boo hoo... But, the ice-cream phone is really lovely and sweet. I want the pink one. Can I have that as my belated birthday present, mum? Please. =D Ya la, I know the answer is no la. hrrmpphh.. (>.<)

Nap time. Goodnight.... XOXO

Stress Induced -- Checked

Had public speaking class earlier today. I fell off short on time. =( When I rehearsed, I was in the supposed time range. =( Oh well.....very disappointed. Screw my fast pace of talking..shiate!

Then, she brief us through our upcoming tasks and boy, I'm left with a spinning head and numbness through my soul. My schedule was already brutally packed and now, worst and sadly, it's going to get a whole lot worst. I'm not kidding. Want to know what's left for me this month until the end of semester?? =D Oh joy, I'll share.

16th March - CSC tutorial
17th March - Biology test
18th March - Got to hand in public speaking's 1st major presentation outline & my last micropresentation takes place
23rd March - CSC assignment due
24th March - Economics test
25th March - Public speaking 1st major presentation
26th March - Biology Quiz
1st April - Probably Public speaking 2nd major presentation

Somewhere in between would be another CSC test and tutorial. Economics presentation is between the end of March and beginning of April.

So, there you go. The taste of American Degree Transfer Program is explicitly succulent. Yum!! Really give my life that extra pint of greatness. Aaaahhh.... "Jolly wolly olly"

Time is of essence now!! Ok.. breathe breathe. I need ice-cream now to calm my nerves. Intimart, here I come!

Perk Up With Photofunia

So, I found out about this site quite some time ago but never actually tried it. Today so happen to be a drop dead boring day and after my nightly conversation with Blackie, didn't felt like sleeping yet so, decided to give Photofunia a shot. Dug out some pictures and randomly select the effects and tadaa. It's actually a pretty entertaining software.

Here there are. =)

Dad, this is for you. Not the Russian roundtable though... better..hahah

Bloop Bloop....This Moment

I've had one week of sheer relaxation but torture's coming once again. They just never end. haha...

Incoming - Bio test, CSC tutorial, Econs test, Bio quiz, CSC assignment due and the next assignment takes place, Bio assignment coming, Econs assignment: all taking place in more or less 2 weeks time

See what I mean. This semester really is no joke. Hectic.

From the start of the semester until now, the only time I actually had total fun and rest was the weekend before my birthday. My mind was completely off studies and other school's shenanigans. Now, I really missed those times. In Genting, explicit bliss. The soothing cool zephyr that sweeps around and all the thrill rides that got me screaming and laughing my lungs out was just perfect. Not forgetting the company of delicious ice-cream of which I'm so deprived of. Ooooo...My dear Baskin Robbins, I miss you so. Shopping in Midvalley was nothing less of perfection either. Shopping is an amazing recipe to cure sadness and more company from Baskin Robbins. sighh.

I miss home. I miss my sis. How I wish I could also go home when I see most of my friends going home yesterday since Monday is a holiday. haha.... Oh well... It's ok. I'm going back in 12 days time for an ocassion very dear and important to me. You'll find out soon. =)

Anyway, enough of the flashback. My blog is turning matte and mundane. My new blog is under way but till then, it's time for happy pictures. =D

On the Ferris Wheel

The Carousel. My absolute favorite kiddie's ride. After Stairways to Heaven popularized it, I love it a whole lot more.

The one thing that never fail to plead me guilty - Chocolate
At the doorway of Beryl's Chocolate store
The decoration definitely screams lovely.
Chocolate Encyclopedia - I'd sure want one
I wasn't ready! I just like the chocolate that I'm sitting on. Cute ain't it?
nyahaha.... I like tall and strong guys. haha
Went for the errmm...4D show... it's really silly...
Simple relaxing joy ride
Enjoying the view from above with my Baskin. yum! I'm so deprived of good ice-cream in Inti

After hours of shopping nonstop, went to Kenko to feed some fishes my dead skin. hehe... I love fish spa. Instantly thought of my parents because the first time I did this, they brought me. Miss home......

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while waiting for the clock to strike 12am but was so tired after a whole day of shopping so went to sleep before that but was dragged out of bed at 12am for
...this. Because it was so sudden, I didn't have time to sort through my wishes so my birthday wish this year wasn't as long as last year's. hehe
horrid hair.

Recently, I'm battling my facial skin. Skin's really bad and it had been this way for months. sigh....so.....brace urself for the picture below... behold the ugliness of....
tee hee.... marks the end of my trip...

Thank you Fatin, Hidayah, Madonna, Anna, and Blackie for the presents. XOXO

Came & Went........

I'm back from my little relaxing vacation. It was really nice and just what I needed after intense pressure. hehe... But time passes really fast. Headed back to school with a very heavy heart. haha...

Oh ya, I've officially reached the last of my teen years. I turned 19 yesterday. =D hehe... I love birthdays albeit I get older but it's exciting. This year's birthday was really errrmm..... a drift away from the usual. No big cake, no family around, not many friends around either. This is the first time I celebrate my birthday with only 1 symbolical candle. I like having many candles to blow but it's alright. I'm still happy. =D

I really missed my sister for reasons I've yet to percolate. Why do I miss you, Annie?? hehe... When I was in Genting, I thought about how big a coward she is because she never dared to go on thrill rides with me even after she promised she would. Hmmphh... That is why, I never sat on very extreme thrill rides because sitting alone is boring and pathetic. No one to laugh and scream with. Pfftt... but this time, I sat for nearly all the thrill rides. Didn't go for the flying coaster though. Perhaps next time. I finally sat on corkscrew. Happy. Had always wanted to try that and it really made me flinched but it was fun. I love theme parks. =D

Went shopping in Midvalley too and yet again, I missed Ann. Midvalley Megamall used to be our comfort shopping zone in KL because mum would usually booked us a room in either Boulevard of Cititel since they are both connected to Midvalley Megamall and both Ann and I would be roaming the whole shopping mall and no matter how our legs were killing us with sores and aches, we would not stop walking until we got to the pinnacle of satisfaction or simply fall broke. heheh...

I called Ann a few times to tell her I'm shopping and all that because she's having exams now. Adding some salty condiments to her wound. hehe... She told me she got me a birthday pressie from MNG. muahaha... love love!!

Deep breaths. It's back to work. -_-" I had to prepare for my public speaking presentation tomorrow. I'm not decided on my topic yet. Was comtemplating to talk about Terracotta warriors. Not sure though.

Sorry for the lack of pictures.Lazy to elaborate and add pics.

Update : p/s : Iannie, I miss you too... hahaha....