Hopelessly Dying Inside

WHAT HURTS THE MOST WAS BEING SO CLOSE!!!

it was at some point beyond my control and i gave it my all. ='(

Condemnation!!!!

I have an extremely strong propensity to flood this post with profanities. So far, I haven't really put in any hard core profanities....should I break the chain and do it now?

I just encountered the most horrifyingly embarrassing thing moments ago and I am not exagerrating one bit. Seriously a*hole I tell you.

But I won't blurt it all out here. That's how embarassing it is. Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

The worst part of it all was that................. *sob sob sob*..... my dear Blackie was there to witness every bit of torturous sentiment there was. Darn....

I hereby officially abhor toooooooooooooooooootttttttt Star Cineplex!!!!! Darn darn darn.....

Goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........................ just kill me..... =)

lalalalalalalalala.........I so wanna swear.............seriously............... gahhhhhhh................... (>.<)

This is For Mr Everything's bout Respect

My darling friends...this post is just for me to vent my anger and animosity for this certain someone whom I hate so so so so so much now. I've never actually hated anybody...dislike maybe but never to the extend of hatred but now I dare say I hate him....As I remember,my darling Rachael Goh would always say ,"Hate is a strong word".haha So..read on if you want to..ignore this would be a better choice but I'm sure most of you would go for the former.. Curiosity never fails to get the better of us.. haha...

Anyway... this guy as I first known him...wow...perfect gentleman ohh.. what a facade he put on now when I think about it. Ergh!! He approach me with really captivating pickup line.. and then we got to know each other better... he was really superbly nice... those innocent good boy kind you know..polite,chivalrous and all... gosh...all he protrudes outside helps him maintain his veneer inner beauty thingymajiger... ergh... I get all seethed up upon recalling who he really is and his trickeries and now I know he is actually far from a gallant gentleman of how he portrayed himself.. he doesn't seem to show respect to girls yet he's always emphasizing bout respect and all those bullcraps! It scares me too when I recall how sadistic and vengeful of a guy he is; always seeking for vengeance and retaliation later in the future. It's really creepy. My dad told me to break off all connection from him. How could I be so blind and not realize his true colors earlier but I totally support the old saying "better late than never". Our friendship ended eons ago but the disgust I have of him remains.

Why?

I failed to get JPA scholarship. I'm gonna breakdown n go insane. Why oh why... I was elated the day I got my SPM results but that results didn't get me anywhere...It only got me to the school opposite my ex-school for Form 6. And found out many that didn't get straight A1's happily secure scholarships. I'm not referring to anybody in particular ok..It's just what I see and heard. I'm very envious of them and thinking what good had my results done for me other than temporary happiness?? This is literally the WORST day of my life. I've never felt such excruciating pain ever! I'm so disappointed in myself... Oh well..just my luck... be grateful you're not me.