TWILIGHT

I just got back home from watching Twilight with Blackie. My friend who read the book say that the movie was rather disappointing. Thanks to my lazy self, I'm not a bibliophile so I don't read at all unless I'm left without the slightest choice - exams. haha...

So, I relished every part of the movie. Love it!!! Hadn't really enjoyed any movies recently because the last 3 movies that Blackie chose was plain awful... haha... Total bore. Twilight on the contrary was absolutely captivating up till the point that the non-bibliophile me, is considering on reading the book.

I love the entire Cullen family. The part where Edward brought Bella for baseball with his family was one of my favorite scenes. The pitching and batting complemented by the sound effect were really nice. The part where the Cullens prepared a meal to welcome Bella was so cute too. Awwhhh.... I'm in love with the Cullen family; I'm in love with Twilight. I want to watch it again. I can't remember the lines verbatim but I remembered quite a few lines that Edward said to Bella were super sweet.

I've heard bits of Twilight from Fatin when she was in the midst of reading it and she told me Edward was suppose to be drop dead gorgeous but Robert wasn't exactly up to that measure. My point of view but it's alright. He's sweet and that's beautiful.

Actually, watching this movie cheered me up. Was a tad upset with Blackie before that. I really wondered what happened to our smooth sailing relationship. Before this month or shall I say this week, we never actually faced displeasure. Is it me or is it him? My patience is sort of reaching it's climax and I can't seem to tolerate much. I've a short fuse. I know I'm becoming more demanding of him but it happens,right? When you get more attached to someone and the relationship is blossoming, you tend to depend and demand more on the other person, right? Well, I'm not exactly certain but that's occurring. However, I'm still happy that we hadn't had our first quarrel yet as in throwing tantrums and anger accompanied by yelling at each other kind of quarrel. We just have those errrmm..... cold treatment and upsetting monotonous talk.

It's just time....You've no idea how much a busy guy he is... sigh...Even on a Saturday night, going out for a movie wasn't easy. He's apologetic about it because there's nothing much he can do and he kept assuring that he cares and all that. Oh well, maybe it isn't such a bad thing after I get back to school. Maybe I'm just being fussy and whiny because I'm having my holidays now and am really free everyday.

You may surmise that the problems lie on me but just hold that thought. There's so much more to it. Anyway, I dare not make any rash decisions now because the repercussion and outcome is most likely irrevocable and he's really so sweet and nice despite it all but is that enough?

Anyhoo!! I LOVE TWILIGHT.....

The Glory of Happiness Prevails

Realized that my previous two posts were impoverished by sadness. Don't want my blog to turn matte so cheerful post now. =) Life's too short to wallow in sadness. So, I'm sprightly back to my happy-go-lucky-lazy-holiday-mood. Muahaha!! Everything is back to normal now. Blackie and I are fine again. =D He's really extremely sweet and nice to me. I've seriously got to cherish him. I've never liked anyone as much as I liked him. *blush* haha...

Spent the whole afternoon with Blackie just now. =) Saw Isabel's miscall so I rang her back. Really miss her and waiting for her return so we can hang out and titter tatter all day long. hehe... Missed Fatin and Madonna too so had a short conference call with them. hehe... It was a nice afternoon.

Oh oh oh!! Quiksilver sent me a message saying tomorrow there'd be a 50% sale storewide from 5pm to 10pm for members. Maybe I should go see if there's any nice stuff to get for Blackie but it didn't say anything about Roxy...=( I absolutely love Roxy and if there's a 50% sale, I'd be celestially jumping my butt off. lalalalalalala....

Ian is back but he's sick so can't pester him to bring me out yet. -_-

Happy that my bro is back!!

Lynnie and Iannie...

Yesterday, my mum attended her travel agent function or some thingymajiger. Anyway,she won the lucky draw's grand prize. It was an mp4 and of course she gave it to me. hehe... Happy although it isn't like a superb revered brand. It's considerably small compared to my iPod video so it's handy to bring around. My mum's really lucky. She won quite a number of gadgets from travel competitions. She won 1 Sony video camera, 1 Sony digital camera and 2 handphones before. My Nokia 5610 Music Express phone and my dad's Samsung phone was from her winnings. Yesterday, she won herself a ticket to Singapore as well for answering a question correctly. lol... If she's going, do you think she's going to bring me?? *.*

I like new stuffs. =D

Dad just told me my result's letter had arrived. Gosh, I didn't even know results are sent to parents. GrrRrr... how am I to hide if I get bad results next time. @_@ haha... I made into the Dean's List =D but I could have done better for a higher Gpa. Really played and relaxed a lot instead of studying. Got to be more serious next semester.

There is something that made me upset today but what the heck, screw that. I've so much more to be happy about than to squander precious time bringing to mind somber events. hehe...

XOXO

Sunshine Lost Its Way to Storm

Last night was pretty nice. Finally met up with Joanne,Aixora, and Seraphina. We went to "Elephant" for dinner. We did lots of catching up. Really missed all the little talks we always had. Everybody had their own funny stories. I don't know how to concisely put it in words but it was really very nice. Joanne and Aixora are still funny as ever. haha.... Thinking about them just lit up my mood. Seraphina's still the old Seraphina. She kept saying Miri is boring. Madonna!!! Miri is boring! haha.. Anyway,so is Kuching.

Joanne left earlier for durians. haha.... The 3 of us headed to "Bing" for drinks. I love the hot chocolate there. Absolutely ambrosial!! We talked a lot about guy issues. lol... Hey guys!!!! I'll always remember the ermm... mouth-bleeding-scurvy-braces !!! Evil evil. hahahhaha... but it was amusing.

With Seraphina

With Aixora

I had a little bit of a conflict with Blackie last night. Hrrmmm.... Tonnes of doubts are orbiting my head now. Oh well... I was actually really happy last night after the casual night out with my friends but because of Blackie, sadness surmounted happiness. Awful. While waiting for Blackie to call, chatted online with a good friend and he was so sweet to try to cheer me up and all. Thanks Wewen! But later on, when Blackie called,we're still intense.

I don't know. Don't know don't know don't know. Everything doesn't seem to fit right at this moment but I'm sure it's just me. I'm such a pessimist when it comes to arguments, conflicts or cold war. I tend to just let go of everything. In a way, walking away from all the bloody snags and it's bad, I know. As for now, I'm muddled in this abysmal of mixed feelings.

Just about an hour ago, Blackie came over to my house to give me Cheeze Choc, my favorite cake but....... stuff got a little messed up....I was at fault this time. I tried cleaning up. I hope we're ok now but I'm not sure. He said he just wanted me to be happy when he sent me the cake but now all there is is sadness. I felt horrible when I read that. Sigh...the atrocity of miscommunication and misunderstanding.

하지만 난 여전히 그를 아주 많이 사랑

A Sudden

This is precisely how I'm feeling now. Vaporized melancholy. It's all so not clean cut. I don't know why I'm feeling like that.

Inflicted by some odd gloomy vibe. It's all so weird. These 2 days, I get annoyed over the slightest matter and feel melancholy for no apparent comprehensible reasons. I get upset for reasons I can't decipher and that adds that much more to my already gloomy self. Seriously, this is the first time I feel this way. Oh my gosh.... I hate feeling like this.

Even just now when I was out with Blackie, I can't help but to feel annoyed and just unhappy, yet again, for NO APPARENT REASONS! omg! But of course, I don a fake smile when he's looking at me and kept playing with my phone as so he won't realize I was upset but he did ask several times if I was. Got to polish my acting skills. haha

AAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

It's also like the weather now in Kuching. Gloomy dark skies with heavy cumulonimbus clouds.

I am a girl after all... Read between the lines and you'll get it. Haha... I should nap... -_____-

My Christmas Wishlist

I can't stress enough on how much I loveeeeeeeee Christmas. The atmosphere of Christmas itself is lovely enough. The soothing sounds of Christmas carols to the warm family gathering is inexplicably joyous. It's just so calming and loving. Love love love Christmas. It'll be so much greater if we had White Christmas here in MALAYSIA which is near the EQUATOR! GrrrRRr!

And of course, presents are as lovely. =D I remember when we were younger, mum would bring us shopping and we were allowed to buy quite a few. My sis and I were Barbie dolls addict back then. All we bought were Barbie merchandise. Oh, and those DIY nail art and play dough machines too. My brother who was a video game junkie, asked for none other than Nintendo and Sony games. You know the tape type. No disc games yet that time. haha....

After purchasing what we wanted, we would stare at mum wrapping them up and embellishing the tree with lots of presents. Daily, we would just sit in front of the tree and start arranging and changing the positions of our own presents nicely and admiring it while anticipating the day we could open and embrace them.haha...the old days were fun..

My impatient brother used to open his presents beforehand and then replace it with his old video games so he could pounce right on with his new one. haha... Silly dumbbell. Oh oh oh!! Speaking of brother. He's coming back home this Monday, err wait... tomorrow's Monday. Weeeee!!! Haven't seen him for 4 months. Miss his annoying ass.

As we grow older, our presents get lesser and lesser. There's only 3 things that I'm musing to own. But being the *ahem* rational person that I am, I'm just going to let mum pick whichever she wants to give me.

I want a camera to meet my narcissistic needs. hehe... The one which I really really really liked since last year is the red DSC-T300 but it's too expensive. Would be grateful to settle with the DSC-T2. =)

Drop dead gorgeous!
Adequate. ^^

Still, I think maybe it's a bit too much to ask. I should save up and get it myself.

So, I don't mind getting a nice watch. Perfect for my unpunctual slothful self. Haven't eyed on any particular one yet. Don't mind the Fossil Charm Bracelet Watch though.
The other option would be mum's suggestion of a necklace. Don't mind that too. =)

If only Santa really exist and I wake up having all 3 of these.Utter bliss. haha.

Christmas Preparation

So exciting!! Christmas is drawing closer and closer. Happy happy joy joy!! My ultimate favorite occasions are Chinese New Year and Christmas. One gives me money and the other presents. Splendid! muahaha.... I haven't really decided what I want this year though. Oh, we ask for the stuff we want from parents instead of the original ritual of accepting mystery presents. I'm sure most of you guys do that too.

Anyway, there's so so so so many things I want to buy for Christmas. Dresses, blouses, heels and lots more. Sad to say, money is such an impediment here and it's such a pity and heartache to see my bank account draining out. The stuff I want are pretty costly and I feel bad to ask so much money directly from parents. So, I got myself hired. haha..... by my mum.

I'm a lazy bum. Well, so are my siblings. We basically don't lift a finger at home. Mum and dad does all the work. hehe... They provide us with maximum comfort in life. All they want from us is good grades. Aren't my parents superb? hahaha... Bad for us in a way but I'm enjoying every bit of relaxation I get. Now, you see why I'm so looking forward and exhilarated to come back home when I'm studying?? hehe... But wait, that doesn't make me or my siblings bitchy spoilt brats ok. =D

So, I made a deal with mum. I told her I'll clean up the house and she'll pay me. She agreed. Muahahaha....After some negotiation, she agreed to pay me RM50 a day and I said I'll be working for 10 days. She said ok. WOoooooo!! Happy!!!! Of course, my personal assistant is my beloved dad. hahahahah...... Being the evil ass that I am, *grin* you know who'll do the dirty work. haha... I've high fived with my mum already as a sign of our agreemend. muahaha!! This is an extremely good deal that I got, right? Aren't you happy for me? lalalalalala...

Anyway, Mum and dad had already put up the Christmas Tree. The first step to Christmas.

I love my Christmas Tree but it looks so naked without presents.
I love the tiny tree and the super adorable White Santa too..

Update!!
There was a new addition that mum brought back last night of which I adore so much!! It's Mr. Snowie...

Look at him. How could you not love him. He's such a sweetheart.

2AM's This Song

Sorry...I can't help it. Just got to share with you all. I love this song.

This is the pre-debut clip of 2am. I think Jo Kwon is so cute!! He trained for 8 years before debuting so, yea...that's why he broke down.Guess it was a touching moment..


This is their 3rd performance at the Inkigayo programme. There's english subtitle. I think the song is so sweet. =D Love love love.... I like Jo Kwon! He's only 20. haha.. The song is called "This Song" or "Inorae".

Ramblings of a deranged-to-be

p/s: This is just a poppycock post out of boredom and the urge to do something so, don't get annoyed or some sort alright. =D

Howdy folks!! It's 6.20am and the extra-terrestrial, yours truly has yet to sleep. Yesterday, I woke up at 8pm. You see how my time's taking a 360 degrees ride? haha..

And I'm seriously running out of things to do. Went to dig some of mum's old Korean drama to watch. Kept me occupied for a bit but then it turned stale. Sis introduced to me some new Korean groups. Omg!! Totally love! Because they just debut a while ago so there aren't many videos of them on youtube. Had been watching the same music video over and over again until I could bear no longer. The new group is called 2am and the song that got me hyped is "This Song" and of course DBSK's "Mirotic". =D I watched like nearly all of DBSK Mirotic live performances. They're quite a bore now.

And since all my normal ordinary family members are already binging into their fantasies in dreamland, poor Lynn left all alone. All the social isolation and boredom made me think over the necessary, I think. Maybe you guys can help me by feeding me with whatever comments u have.Bad Good doesn't matter. At least, that's like some sort of socialization. haha...I feel like getting a makeover. I'm bored of me. haha... Oh boy, I'm really turning into a deranged.

So, sweethearts..... what do you propose I change?? Maybe I should take baby steps by starting to use a little make up. Should I? I don't know. Lazy to learn. Lose weight definitely not an option. Furthermore, lovely Christmas is drawing closer, got to look nice. Speaking of which, I need to shop for nice clothings. Waiting anxiously for Isabel to come back! Maybe I should perm my hair? What do you think?

Utilized my webcam to complement this post.

I'm bored. Can you tell? I think this would be the ugliest you've seen of me. haha..
Should I color my hair with a lighter more prominent shade of brown?? OOoo...those black roots aren't cute!!
Hrrmm.....propose some possible change,please. ooo...look... ugly chipped paint on nails... (>.<)
An SOS call to all of you guys...
Would I look cute after undergoing the ever-so-popular rhinoplasty?? haha
But the excruciating pain would instantly kill me!! (This is the Emily pose btw..^^)
Dear Lord, I was just saying. I appreciate all that you've blessed me with. Love you lots!
Then,what can I do to beautify myself?? :'(
Guys! I'm completely sane ok. Not at all depressed whatsoever. Just feel like causing a stir to my innerself for the fun of it. haha...
Thanks for dropping by. MuaAAaccKKss!!

Don't think I'll be sleeping anytime soon. Waiting for mum and dad to wake up then I shall listen a while to them speaking gibberish to me for being an alien and then join them for breakfast. What say you? Good idea? =)

Friends from St. Teresa Secondary School

I absolutely miss all those secondary school times with my dear friends. I, like many others never thought I'd be missing secondary school. Was actually eagerly anticipating the day I can step out of school to breathe the air of emancipation. haha... how wrong was I.

When I to turn back and mulled over the events of my secondary school life, I realized how I missed and wished to live those days again. But I guess I wouldn't be missing it if I didn't have those friends who scintillated every bit of my secondary school years. Sigh.. how I miss all of them, now that every one of us had parted ways.

I have a couple of best friends in school and those dare devils really added so much sugar, spice and everything nice into my schooling life.

Isabel is the super adorable, perky, fun, nicest, caring, insane,and lovable girl whom I sat next to for 3 years.
Joanne is the loudest, smartest,hardworking, pretty hot and tempting, funny yet lovely girl whom I sat next to in Form 5. I was clamp in between two of them in Form 5. Life was amazing. The 3 of us love love love Korean Acts....oh how we enjoy talking about Korea's what's hot and what's not.
Aixora, definitely the most humorous, most unpunctual for school, really optimistic, great at socializing, nice, and pretty girl who feeds us with latest happenings.
Ivanna, awwhh...this girl... super cute, loud, has contagious laugh, prim and proper, gentle, hardworking, tall and she's far away in Russia now. =(
Rachael, our squash player, tallest among us, loves tan skin, has really pretty eyes and damn kissable lips, really healthy(feeds on fruits) and she loves dogs and cats!! errKK!! hahaha.... I'm animal phobic. =)

Of course, there are many other good friends that spice up my life. Too many to list and I don't want to hurt anybody if I so happen to forgot to list them down. Will introduce them in pictures. Errmm... Will bold their NAMES in captions...

I really miss the times where :-
1) My best friends and I gather and just talk about any random thing and laugh nonstop
2) We illegally ate in class when teacher is teaching
3) Ivanna got caught eating and she looked so worried..haha
4) Isabel and I borrowed textbooks from other people since both of us never brought out textbooks to school... oh how the others gave us their unpleasant glare
5) We borrowed other friends homeworks to copy when the due date to hand in was the next day (none of us ever really completed our homeworks)
6) We stayed in class to talk for quite some time when others when to laboratory and we'd join the class late
7) the 6 of us just walk down to church together to wait for our parents after school

In brief, I just miss the times where my best friends and I do everything together or just simply sit in Coffeebean and talk the day away. It's so hard for all of us to gather together now. We all have different schedules. Like now, only Joanne and I are having holidays. The rest, not sure when.

Pictures time.... but the many picture files that I have are GONE!!! My comp was reformat and now all I have left are these.... All the Leo functions and birthdays that we attended, I don't have them. sighh...

Form 5 pictures
p/s: All of them look way better than in pictures ok. Everybody looks not as good in school. Furthermore,these were taken close to SPM so eyebags and all are really prominent. All my friends are gorgeous ok! >.<

Left to right : Me, Joanne, Ivanna, Rachael, Isabel, AINSYAH, Aixora and Mr Teo
Identified my best friends yet?
Ivanna, Rachael, Me, Mr George(History Teacher), Aixora
Rach, Me,Joanne,Ivanna,Isabel, Aixora, AMANDA

Top Row : Joanne,Me, CHRISLYNN(my cousin), Rachael, ANNE,Ivanna
2nd Row: MAGDALENE, Isabel, STEPHANIE, CHOULYEW, Aixora
Front Row : HAZIQAH, NATALIE, ALICIA
Back Row: Ivanna, AUDREY, Me, Isabel, Rachael
Front: SARAH, Joanne, GODWINNA, Aixora
GODWINNA, Rachael, Me
Rach, Me, Ivanna
Rach,AMANDA, Me, Godwinna
SARAH, me, VICTORIA, AUDREY and GODWINNA's side
Darling Isabel enjoying the shepherd pie Aixora made
Joanne, me, SERAPHINA(we're very violent towards each other..we greet each other with a hard slap on the back.haha)
With CLAUDIA(she's really kind and generous in helping..classmates since form 1 ^^)
With CARMELLA, Ivanna and Isabel
My dare devil cousie and Rachael
The sweet GODWINNA and I. She had food in her mouth when this was taken.
Awhh...I really miss break time with these 2 lovelies(Bel and jo-n)
The last time we gathered in the hall for assembly.
VICTORIA,AUDREY,Rachael, Ivanna,Isabel, Joanne, SARAH,me, GODWINNA
Waiting for our car in Church.
Joanne,Me,Ivanna,Isabel, EUGENIA(she's another Korean addict)
haha...Just posted this pic to save it here in case I lose it. With my sis and her vociferous friends. Seriously, when they are together and they start getting excited. Mama mia... really loud but they're so adorable together. haha...
Pei San, Jessica, my sis(Ann), me, Gabrielle, Guinevere
The ever so sprightly Miss Joanne Pei
Little Miss Cute and Little Miss Splendid
Joanne and I
Additional Math Teacher, Mdm Fu
MICHELLE TOK and I
Best Friends Forever!! XOXO
Ivanna, AMANDA,MICHELLE,Joanne, Aixora,Me,Isabel
Without Aixora
The Gohs (Isabel Goh and Rachael Goh)

Pictures of 2007 Leo Forum in Miri
Shoot...I only have those from Bel's Camera...the rest are gone.... =(

In the plane to Miri
I was sleeping, Joanne hates airplane's smell, Ivanna wide awake. Isabel took the picture
Last day at the Forum. Ivanna and I

Ivanna, Joanne, Me, and Isabel
That's all I have folks. Real sad. All the pictures during the banquet night and others are gone!!

My 18th Birthday on 2nd March 2008
Joanne and Aixora couldn't make it because they were having their National Service Training. Ivanna was studying in Penang. Rachael had squash competition. But I was still really happy my other buddies came to celebrate with me. =D

Left side: Chrislynn,Seraphina,Michelle
Right side : Magdalene, Amanda and me
Left : Audrey, Sarah, Chrislynn,Michelle, Me
Right : Isabel,Magdalene, Amanda
haha...my cousie's funny ain't she?
Isabel!! She did so much for me to have this wonderful birthday dinner!! Thanks dear!! Love u so much!
Lovely Michelle.
Drinks at Frappe after dinner at Secret Garden

There were other friends who celebrated with me too.
Right: Bernard, Karvin, Kenny... me and Alexandra in the middle
Left : Alicia and Walter
He wasn't ready. haha.(Hint hint: He has dark complexion so...get it?)
My chocolate cheesecake which Isabel and Bernard bought for me! Yummo!

That's all folks! How I miss spending time with all these people. I'm really grateful to have all of them as part of my life.
XOXO!!